|Two happy-making things.|
I'm not in a good headspace right now; in fact I'm struggling to cope with a lot of day-to-day living.
I know exactly what this is about: one area of my life is unpleasant for me, and I feel like I'm unable to get out of the situation or do anything about it.
I'm feeling powerless.
I'm feeling anxious and disconnected. I'm struggling to find the joy that normally comes so easily to me.
I have, of course, been here before - more times than I wish. So I know the depression will pass; it always does; I just wish it would pass sooner!
I'm trying to keep my head above water by looking after myself physically - eating fruit, getting enough fresh air and sunshine, and going to bed early.
I've also put together a plan to make the unpleasant situation easier, and to [eventually] get away from it.
And each morning I honour my commitment to my hoop. I get up and, no matter how crap I feel, I hoop for 15 minutes. When I can, I hoop during my lunch break and after work.
When I hoop I feel better. My hoop gives me the space to be creative, to move, to free my mind from doubt and fear. I feel "normal" again - as though there is hope for me still.
This morning on Facebook my teacher, Christine [I consider her one of my teachers even though we've never met in person], wrote this:
That way that you feel when you're dancing and it's just you and the music and you've totally got this? That. That's the true you. No baggage. No garbage. Free. You.